I will try to explain why I had to think about it. When I thought with the brain between my legs, it was a "no brainer". I would get to achieve my dream of having anal sex with Cindy. And, the cost didn't seem very high. It involves a kinky night with Cindy and her two best friends. And,they already know about our relationship and one has already seen me spanked. So, on that level, it was a "no brainer".
However, when I thought with the brain in my head, the major concern I had was how far Cindy would go. We both relate to Strict Julie Spanks. I suspect that those of you who follow Strict Julie may understand my hesitation. I love Strict Julie in my fantasies. But, I also understand that she is wildly kinky. Even though I find them very exciting in my fantasy world, some of the things she has done with David take things further than I am ready to deal with in reality at this time. She has also taken some extremely hard spankings herself and administered some very tough spankings to David. I had to consider that. She has also allowed other women to administer very hard discipline to David. Since Cindy relates very strongly to Julie's blog, it caused me to pause about this offer.
The only limitations that Cindy shared with me with concerning her girl friends prior to tonight was that there would be no sexual contact. She also previously told me that no activities between her and me are off the table. That made me think that she might plan to extract a price from me to be able to enjoy having sex in her beautiful, petite, and curvaceous bottom. I am aware that she has never had anal sex and she is very hesitant about how it will feel. Yet, she knows how much I crave it, which made me wonder what that price might be. In a way, that makes it all the more exciting for me, and I suspect for her.
Before making my final decision Cindy and I talked more about what she expects of me. The answer I received included the following:
- Cindy's friends, Liz and Amy, will be invited to our home for dinner, discussion, and some play time. The goal will be to share information about our relationship with Liz and Amy and to allow them to see how it actually works.
- I will be expected to honestly and candidly answer any questions they have about our Female Led Relationship and my feelings about it.
- I must willingly and cheerfully follow any directions that Cindy, Liz, and Amy give me (unless Cindy decides that something Liz or Amy requests is inappropriate.
- Cindy will not require me to do anything that is on our list of discussed activities that I have not rated at least a 5 or higher (See this post) . Note: I have recently reviewed our list and there are a lot of things that I rated 5 or higher from a fantasy standpoint. The way she explained it also caused me to realize that she may suggest items we have not discussed.
- Cindy will not allow any sexual contact between Liz or Amy and me, including even touching my genitals. However, that does not preclude them touching other parts of my body or spanking me.
After I shared my decision with Cindy, she told me that she will set things up with Liz and Amy. She also indicated that she plans to give me no more than two hours notice before Liz and Amy arrive at our home for dinner. She did share that it should happen within the next week.